UGH!!! I’m kind of panicking… Went by Nat’s house today to try and plan where everything is going. The nit-picker in my mind started freaking out a bit about little things, but I just told myself that a little bit of chaos would prepare me for my future. Not everything is always going to be perfect and I should get used to a little bit of awkwardness in my life. I suppose maybe it’s my fear of alone time or lack of it. After 7 years of living alone, it’s quite a bit of a shock to be confronted with moving in with another person. Also a bit of fear is mixed in with moving everything I own into a new place.
Breathe Ben… breathe! Everything will be okay and this situation will help get you back into being social. I really hate packing, but I guess this will also be a good way to save money and help my sister out. There’s no backing out now. Get your ass in gear and embrace the crazy.
Thank you God for blessing me with someone who can talk to me and reassure me that I’m doing the right thing. When you’re going round and round in your head it’s nice to have a girlfriend who can talk some sense into you. :)